Little thoughts
Guess everything that i thought about, its just a dream.
Recently, asked myself should i be in a relationship. And of course, what i want in my life too.
What it takes to lead a good life in future?
Have a good education. Being hardworking and diligent in whatever you do. Have a good conscience working things out.
For me, it isn't my nature to work consistently. But certainly have good brains to solve things easier than anyone does. I believe this is me. That makes me flunk all my daily work, and good grades for my exams and test. Dad talked to me about what i wanted in my future. I had dreams. To get into local university after serving NS. Actually there is a option for me to study aboard, in US. But its not i want. I don't want to leave my family and friends no matter what happens. They are so damn important to me. After schooling for 4 semesters, things didn't turn out the way i wanted it to be. My grades are dropping alot. Its good enough for me to pass, but its just below my expectations.
What it takes to be in a relationship?
It needs time to nurture feelings for each other. Needs money to spend on her, to make her feel enjoyable being with you. Certainly takes effort to care for a person, and making her know she's important to him. Nevertheless be prepared to get hurt anytime if it doesn't succeed.
Relationship for a guy who have left 1 year before wearing the ugly green uniform? haa.. It won't work out. Your girl will leave you, if the bonding isn't strong enough. She might just go out with someone else, because you don't have the time for her. All you girls out there, dun think that what i said isn't true, proof me wrong when you're in this situation, other guy caring for you when u misses ur boyfriend, and be there for you when you're hurted. what would you do? =) Seen lotsa cases, relationships robbed by the government.
haa.. money is an issue also. Not the same old Joel anymore, who can spend without thinking. Right now have zero income, and still taking up driving, which cost a bomb. fuck that.
No money = no going out = very sian = no girlfriend
(Formula made by myself)
Caring for someone is what im really good at. But accepting them into my life and getting hurt anytime like what i exprienced before isn't what i can handle. the time and effort to extingush the problem, its such a pain in the ass. For you guys who know me well, you know what happened and how hard i took to forget about it. Don't wish to mention it here because its no point talking about unpleasant past. Its entertaining but i just don't like to talk about it. haa. bleh!
My life now:
Recently known someone who's so similar to me.(The previous post was about her) Started contacting each other and find out that although she doesn't have the ultimate looks that i wanted to be, she's certainly cute in her own ways. Hasn't really opened up to her. I mean its better to be friends first than rushing into a relationship. Somehow, she resembles Bingbing. Wild, cheerful, sweet, outgoing. I liked her not because she's like bingbing, or i wanna find a replacement. But its the kind of personality. I like this kinda girls for all i know. Maybe its just a crash, since we haven't know each other long enough, but i do care for her, as a friend or as someone important to me, its the same.
Her dance is hot in clubs, she's outgoing and cares for friends alot. Just can't stop talking about her. haha.
Had the first conversation with her last night, around 5am. Waited for her to finish her business with some of her friends. Glad to hear she totally enjoyed her time last night. The conversation was kinda boring. I just couldn't make good jokes in english. i prefer talking in chinese, for casual talks because stupid and crazy stuffs just come outta my mouth. Was asking her to tell me more about herself, then she said there was a guy who was very sweet to her upon the first meeting and she really liked it. And tells me that she dunno what will happen in the near future. Guess this is a little hint from her, telling me its good to be friends and dun have high hopes on.. it.
lol.. actually its also expected one la. a girl thats cute, why wouldn't guys to hit on her? Its was kinda depressed and i excused myself, went to bed. It was like 9am now, slept for like 2hours, with thoughts going round my mind. Maybe its just me thinking too much, like i always do, but i really didn't want to. Just wanna have a good rest. It didn't happen. At least she told her earlier so i won't fall deep for her. Falling for a girl in just few days? haha. its just me. Bingbing and me dated for only 3hours, and we lasted for 10months 22days. She dropped more than 1 hint, to make me think that i should not even try. LOL.
"you should be able to get girls easily." yea, if this is the case i'd have tons of girlfriends by now. Its my nature to care for some1 but it isn't my nature to hit on girls. i might be rowdy, but im certainly not a bigtime playboy. haha. this is what comes to my mind, but i didn't tell her that.
This is me:
i believe every word that comes out from anyone's mouth has a meaning. To everything. You don't need to brag how much you cared for someone because its merely a thought. Just like to keep things to myself, unless necessary, i won't open myself to anyone. Have a thinking mature enough to let my girl go out with some other guy. Not that i don't care or won't be jealous. Its just things i don't wish to be made problem. Do anything you like, as long as you know your limits. This is good enough for me. Willing to sit down with her, talking out and solving problems between us. etc etc.
Yea, thats about it. Another boring post. HaHa.
Signing off,
j0eL
Recently, asked myself should i be in a relationship. And of course, what i want in my life too.
What it takes to lead a good life in future?
Have a good education. Being hardworking and diligent in whatever you do. Have a good conscience working things out.
For me, it isn't my nature to work consistently. But certainly have good brains to solve things easier than anyone does. I believe this is me. That makes me flunk all my daily work, and good grades for my exams and test. Dad talked to me about what i wanted in my future. I had dreams. To get into local university after serving NS. Actually there is a option for me to study aboard, in US. But its not i want. I don't want to leave my family and friends no matter what happens. They are so damn important to me. After schooling for 4 semesters, things didn't turn out the way i wanted it to be. My grades are dropping alot. Its good enough for me to pass, but its just below my expectations.
What it takes to be in a relationship?
It needs time to nurture feelings for each other. Needs money to spend on her, to make her feel enjoyable being with you. Certainly takes effort to care for a person, and making her know she's important to him. Nevertheless be prepared to get hurt anytime if it doesn't succeed.
Relationship for a guy who have left 1 year before wearing the ugly green uniform? haa.. It won't work out. Your girl will leave you, if the bonding isn't strong enough. She might just go out with someone else, because you don't have the time for her. All you girls out there, dun think that what i said isn't true, proof me wrong when you're in this situation, other guy caring for you when u misses ur boyfriend, and be there for you when you're hurted. what would you do? =) Seen lotsa cases, relationships robbed by the government.
haa.. money is an issue also. Not the same old Joel anymore, who can spend without thinking. Right now have zero income, and still taking up driving, which cost a bomb. fuck that.
No money = no going out = very sian = no girlfriend
(Formula made by myself)
Caring for someone is what im really good at. But accepting them into my life and getting hurt anytime like what i exprienced before isn't what i can handle. the time and effort to extingush the problem, its such a pain in the ass. For you guys who know me well, you know what happened and how hard i took to forget about it. Don't wish to mention it here because its no point talking about unpleasant past. Its entertaining but i just don't like to talk about it. haa. bleh!
My life now:
Recently known someone who's so similar to me.(The previous post was about her) Started contacting each other and find out that although she doesn't have the ultimate looks that i wanted to be, she's certainly cute in her own ways. Hasn't really opened up to her. I mean its better to be friends first than rushing into a relationship. Somehow, she resembles Bingbing. Wild, cheerful, sweet, outgoing. I liked her not because she's like bingbing, or i wanna find a replacement. But its the kind of personality. I like this kinda girls for all i know. Maybe its just a crash, since we haven't know each other long enough, but i do care for her, as a friend or as someone important to me, its the same.
Her dance is hot in clubs, she's outgoing and cares for friends alot. Just can't stop talking about her. haha.
Had the first conversation with her last night, around 5am. Waited for her to finish her business with some of her friends. Glad to hear she totally enjoyed her time last night. The conversation was kinda boring. I just couldn't make good jokes in english. i prefer talking in chinese, for casual talks because stupid and crazy stuffs just come outta my mouth. Was asking her to tell me more about herself, then she said there was a guy who was very sweet to her upon the first meeting and she really liked it. And tells me that she dunno what will happen in the near future. Guess this is a little hint from her, telling me its good to be friends and dun have high hopes on.. it.
lol.. actually its also expected one la. a girl thats cute, why wouldn't guys to hit on her? Its was kinda depressed and i excused myself, went to bed. It was like 9am now, slept for like 2hours, with thoughts going round my mind. Maybe its just me thinking too much, like i always do, but i really didn't want to. Just wanna have a good rest. It didn't happen. At least she told her earlier so i won't fall deep for her. Falling for a girl in just few days? haha. its just me. Bingbing and me dated for only 3hours, and we lasted for 10months 22days. She dropped more than 1 hint, to make me think that i should not even try. LOL.
"you should be able to get girls easily." yea, if this is the case i'd have tons of girlfriends by now. Its my nature to care for some1 but it isn't my nature to hit on girls. i might be rowdy, but im certainly not a bigtime playboy. haha. this is what comes to my mind, but i didn't tell her that.
This is me:
i believe every word that comes out from anyone's mouth has a meaning. To everything. You don't need to brag how much you cared for someone because its merely a thought. Just like to keep things to myself, unless necessary, i won't open myself to anyone. Have a thinking mature enough to let my girl go out with some other guy. Not that i don't care or won't be jealous. Its just things i don't wish to be made problem. Do anything you like, as long as you know your limits. This is good enough for me. Willing to sit down with her, talking out and solving problems between us. etc etc.
Yea, thats about it. Another boring post. HaHa.
Signing off,
j0eL
posted by Joel | 8:04 AM
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